I just friended enkeli. *waves* Hi enkeli!

This caused me to look at my friends list for the first time in weeks, and, wow! A lot of people I don't know have added me to their friends list recently. *waves* Hi new people reading my journal! Here's hoping I can come up with at least one not too terribly boring thing to say in each entry.

Y'know, I get that they're promoting a sense of community and what not, but I really wish LJ would just call it a "Reading List" instead of a "Friend List." If you do or don't add somebody to your reading list it's not that big a deal. But mix in the idea that friendship is somehow involved and suddenly there's potential for hurt feelings and a sense of obligation to reciprocate by "friending" total strangers so that they don't feel snubbed. Which I don't do, just so's ya know. It has nothing to do with me snubbing anybody and everything to do with being short on time and needing my daily LJ reads to be short. You blogger people probably have no idea what I'm talking about, but I think that's one argument in favor of the regular ol' blog. You find another blog you enjoy well enough, you add a link to it. There's no expectation of reciprocation and unless you tell the owner of the other blog or your link pops up in their referral logs they don't even know you've linked to them. It's so much less complicated. I like things uncomplicated.

Anyway. In other news, I woke up jonesing for new Buffy tonight, and I'm gonna be antsy all day until it comes on.

I stayed up to finish the new ficlet last night, but I've still gotta get some more feedback on the draft and do rewrites before I post it. Hopefully that won't take too much longer. I had to push through a bout of "I suck" to get it done, and I'm still kinda feeling it today. I haven't done much in the way of sex scenes -- and I guess you could say I still haven't. Try as I might to be smutty, I can't seem to cross the line from "love scene" to straight-up smut. Sigh. Anyway, hoping it would help me, I pulled up my very small handful of previously written love scenes to read, and, well, they suck. They don't suck as bad as some, but they're not that great either. Sometimes I look at my writing -- fairly recent stuff, too, that I thought showed how much I've grown in the craft, blah blee blah -- and suddenly it just screams "amateur!" and I want to cry and then go check out grad schools because I'd just better plan on being a school psychologist since I'll obviously never cut it as a novelist. I should never, ever read my old work.

Because I am a stubborn woman who just doesn't know when to quit, ahmina go ahead and post the new ficlet today, and try to get some more of my DL3 chapter banged out before forcing myself to do some of the reading for school before I have to stop and work out before beginning my Tuesday ritual of distracting myself with the previous week's ep in the hour before the new ep comes on. Wow, that's a lot o' befores. I hope we get good Spike tonight. Good Spuffy would be even better. I could use a happy distraction.