If you're looking for a diversion, Episode 12 of War! went up over the weekend. I have no idea when the next episode will go up, but probably not any time this week.

I wrote this one. I spent two weeks on it, and neglected my studies to get it in on time. So this week I'm paying for it. I'm terribly far behind on my reading. My next assignment for my online Intro to Business class is due Saturday by midnight. Normally I'd just buckle down and do it Saturday, but Friday I'm heading to Nashville for a much needed weekend with some online friends. So I need to get it turned in by tomorrow night. I also have an extra credit essay due tomorrow afternoon for Social Problems, and a test in that class a week from tomorrow. My Reasearch Methods class also has a test coming up soon, and I haven't even finished the first reading assignment for that class. So today was supposed to be spent getting caught up on my studies.

Right. Like I could focus on any of that. I've sat down to do it many times today. I think I managed to answer one question on my Business homework. I just can't keep my mind on my work. I wanted to go to church tonight, to pray and to be with other people who are just as upset and freaked out as I am, but I didn't, because I've got all this homework to do. Yet here I sit at my computer, blogging about how I can't focus long enough to do any of it.

It just seems wrong to be going on with our daily lives, doing the things we would normally do, when so much is just not normal right now. Yet at the same time we have to, because it would be so wrong of us not to. To lie down, to curl up in a ball and try to wish it all away, to put our lives on hold to bask in the sheer horror of it all ... we can't do that, because that's what they want us to do. So people had to go to their jobs today, children had to go to school. People did laundry and went grocery shopping and got together with friends for lunch, and wished that they could be useful, that they could do something to help all of the people who spent today digging through rubble in the hopes of saving just one life, or the people who spent today searching hospitals for some glimmer of hope that their loved ones made it out alive. Life has to go on, and we have to go on, or else we're defeated.

So. I'm gonna go do some homework now.