5 days until the band's concert at Curly's. 14 days until classes start up again. Both countdowns are stressing me. Especially that second one. I really can't do anything more than I've already done to help the band get ready for their gig. Although I'm also stressed on that count because there's a hink in procuring them a PA system. For some reason my credit card, which has a pretty good size limit and is completely paid off, was declined, so I've got to get that straightened out before the music store will ship their package. Bah.

But I'm far more stressed about the back-to-school deadline. SO much to do, and I'm sure you're all tired of reading about it, but tough. Actually, I'm kind of looking forward to having some structure to my days again. I think I do better with structure, and I'm clearly incapable of providing it for myself. I just really hope that my classes don't require heaps of papers to be written. I'll seriously get depressed about halfway through the year if all of my writing time is taken up with academic papers. Hence why I'm scrambling to get my fic finished before classes start, so at least I won't have to worry about that anymore.

Still on my To Do list: CLEAN! I've made some headway there, got the floor clear for a serious, heavy-duty carpet cleaning in half of my place. Also, catching up on e-mail, which I've been promising to do all summer and I SUCK because I've got e-mail going back to March and a lot of it is feedback about stories I've written and I don't know if the people expected replies and I'm incredibly rude for not having replied or if they didn't expect or even really desire to hear back and I'm stressing over nothing ... but then there are e-mails from folks like Erich and Pete and Caro, and I REALLY suck for not having answered those yet, and the only reason I haven't is because I put them off until I had time to compose thoughtful responses but then by the time I had time to do so, so much time had gone by that I had major guilt ... GAH! So, yeah. There's still that to do.

And I have to go buy my books and get my hair cut and give myself a manicure and a pedicure and pay my bills and figure out my budget for the fall and figure out if I can afford to get my cat spayed because she's driving me up the fricking wall and I have to contact my sister and see if interning in her class is even a viable option and if it's not then I have to line up some more internship possibilities and I have to finish Harry Potter lest I don't pick it up again until Christmas break and I still have to prep my story for marketing and write up a decent cover letter (I really hate/suck at cover letters) and finish Perfect World and get my scenes for my upcoming chapters of DL written (thank God I'm only a co-writer from here on out) in case academic writing really does take up all my time this semester and I have to at least finishe the damn prologue to my novel and begin writing that in earnest, and I have 5 things in my mailbox that I need to beta read for other people because I promised that I would ...

Pause for breath.

So, I'm freaking a little. Feeling so far overwhelmed that whelmed is a tiny little dot to me, and seriously missing my medication.

So my goals for today are to beta everything in my box, get my story all prepped for marketing (minus the cover letter, I'll worry about that tomorrow), and try to finish PW5. And to go outside at some point, because that's just healthy. Unless it aggravates my allergies.

This is me, chilling.